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Chapter 5 - Secrets in the Scars

The storm intensified as midnight rolled in, rattling the heavy leaded windows of the estate’s private medical wing.

Dr. Joseph, a retired trauma surgeon who lived permanently on Vincent’s payroll, finished tying off the neat nylon sutures along Grimm’s shoulder. The big dog didn't even flinch. He lay on a rubberized examination table, his chin resting comfortably on Lucy’s lap while she hummed an off-key tune from a cartoon she liked, rhythmically stroking the velvet edges of his ears.

"The bullet was a through-and-through, Mr. Hale," Dr. Joseph said, stripping off his bloody latex gloves and dropping them into a biohazard bin. "Missed the joint, missed the artery. He’s got scar tissue like braided Kevlar under there. Give him three days of antibiotics, keep him quiet, and he’ll be fine."

"He doesn't stay quiet," Vincent said from the doorway.

He hadn't changed out of his ruined dress shirt. The cuffs were rolled to his elbows, stained with grease, rain, and his brother's blood. He held an ice pack against his left forearm, where a shard of flying glass from the china cabinet had carved a clean four-inch gash through his sleeve.

Dr. Joseph sighed, picking up a suture kit. "Let me look at your arm, Vincent."

"Tend to the dog," Vincent answered without looking at the doctor. "Then leave us."

"Vincent, you need six stitches or it’s going to get infected," the doctor warned, knowing better than to push too hard.

"Leave the kit on the counter. Marcus will walk you to your car."

Dr. Joseph hesitated, then nodded solemnly, packing his leather bag and slipping out the heavy side door, leaving the three of us—and the dog—in the quiet hum of fluorescent lights.

Lucy yawned, a wide, shuddering yawn that scrunched her whole nose up. "Mama, my eyes feel like they have sand in them."

I walked over to the exam table and gently lifted her down. Her little hands were sticky with dog saliva and dried antiseptic. "I know, sweetheart. It’s way past your bedtime. Let’s get you upstairs."

"Bear comes too?" she asked, looking back at the exam table.

Grimm immediately slid his massive hind legs off the rubber mat, landing on the floor with a dull thud. He shook his coat once, ears rattling, and pressed his broad head against Lucy’s hip.

"Bear comes too," Vincent murmured.

I carried Lucy up the back staircase—the private, oak-paneled stairs that had once been forbidden to domestic staff. Vincent followed five paces behind, his steps silent, his presence looming like an umbrella against the dark. When we reached the east wing suite, I washed Lucy’s face and hands in the marble bathroom, changed her into her favorite pair of fleece pajamas with yellow ducks, and tucked her beneath the heavy down duvet.

Grimm didn't wait for permission. He lumbered over to the side of the bed, circled three times, and sank heavily onto the rug, his injured shoulder facing out toward the door, his eyes half-closed but vigilant.

Within two minutes, Lucy’s breathing settled into the deep, rhythmic hum of childhood sleep.

I stood by the edge of the bed for a long moment, listening to the rain hammer the slate roof. My hands were shaking. The adrenaline that had kept me upright during the gunshots, the shattering glass, and Nolan’s screams was finally burning off, leaving behind a cold, hollow exhaustion that made my knees feel like water.

I turned to leave the bedroom, slipping into the adjoining private library.

Vincent was sitting on a low leather sofa, the green-shaded banker’s lamp casting his face in sharp emerald and charcoal shadows. The suture kit Dr. Joseph had left was sitting on the glass coffee table, along with an open bottle of single-malt Scotch and a bowl of steaming water.

He was trying to stitch his own left forearm using his right hand and a pair of curved forceps.

His teeth were gritted, his jaw clenched so tight the muscle twitched visibly. Sweat beaded at his hairline. He had managed to push the needle through the skin once, but the awkward angle made it impossible to tie the knot one-handed without ripping the flesh.

"You’re going to butcher yourself," I whispered from the doorway.

Vincent paused. He didn't look up, but his shoulders dropped a fraction of an inch. "I’ve done it before."

"That doesn't make it a good idea."

I walked across the Persian rug and knelt on the floor in front of the coffee table, right between his knees. Without asking for permission, I reached out and gently pried the metal forceps from his blood-slicked fingers.

His hands were trembling. The great Vincent Hale, who controlled four hundred miles of coastline and three hundred armed soldiers, was shaking from shock and blood loss.

"Claire," he rasped, his voice low and warning. "You don't have to do this."

"Shut up, Mr. Hale," I said softly, picking up a sterile gauze pad soaked in antiseptic. "Hold your arm still."

He fell silent.

I cleaned the wound first. The cut was deep, running from his wrist halfway to his elbow, clean-edged from the lead crystal. When the cold iodine hit the raw meat of his arm, his breath hitched sharply through his teeth, his thighs tensing against the edge of the sofa where my knees were braced, but he didn't pull away.

I threaded the nylon suture through the tiny eyelet. My father had been a commercial fisherman out of Gloucester; I had spent my teenage years stitching deep cuts on salt-crusted docks with heavy nylon line when the trawlers couldn't afford to dock for medical emergencies. This wasn't much different.

I pushed the needle through the first layer of dermis.

Vincent stared at my hands. His gaze was heavy, heated, burning down into the top of my head as I worked.

"You’re very calm for a woman who saw three men nearly killed two hours ago," he said, the gravel in his voice scraping against the quiet room.

"I’m terrified," I admitted, knotting the first loop with a quick, decisive snap of the forceps. "My hands are only steady because if I stop moving, I think I’ll start screaming and I won't be able to stop."

"You didn't run."

"Where would I run, Vincent?" I looked up from his arm, meeting his gray eyes. Up close, the gold flecks in his irises looked like sparks caught in ice. "Your brother tried to assassinate you in your own dining room. The men who clean the streets report to you. If I ran out the front gate with Lucy, someone would pick us up before we hit the highway."

"I wouldn't let them touch you," he said fiercely.

"You couldn't even stop your own brother from poisoning your family for four years," I said, the truth slipping out before my survival instincts could bite it back.

Vincent flinched as if I had struck him across the face.

I instantly regretted it. I lowered my gaze, focusing back on the second stitch, pulling the edges of his flesh together with gentle precision. "I’m sorry. That was cruel."

"It was accurate," he murmured.

He leaned his head back against the leather cushion, staring up at the shadow-dappled ceiling.

"Nolan was always small," Vincent said, the confession spilling out of him into the empty room. "When we were boys in the North End, my father beat us both with an iron belt buckle when the collection envelopes came up short. I took the brunt of it. I thought if I protected Nolan from the old man’s fists, he would grow up whole. Instead, he grew up envious. He thought because he didn't have the scars, he deserved the throne."

I pulled the fourth stitch tight. "And Elena?"

"Elena was different," Vincent’s voice dropped into a tender register that broke my heart. "She was seven years younger than us. My mother died having her. She had our mother’s laugh. When she was twelve, she found a stray pigeon with a broken wing and kept it in a shoe box under her bed for two months until it could fly. She didn't belong in this blood. I was going to send her to Florence. She had an acceptance letter to the art academy in her purse the night her car went off the bridge."

A drop of sweat rolled down his temple. I reached out with a clean cotton pad and gently blotted it away.

Vincent’s breath caught. He didn't pull back. Instead, his uninjured right hand slowly rose and rested against the side of my neck, his thumb brushing against my jawline. His skin was rough, calloused from firearms and heavy weights, but his touch was impossibly soft.

"Why didn't you leave three years ago, Claire?" he asked, his eyes searching mine with a hunger that had nothing to do with violence. "You saw the men who came to the side door. You saw the bullet holes in the fenders of the sedans. You knew what I was."

"Because you paid four hundred dollars a week more than the hotel downtown," I whispered, my heart slamming violently against my ribs as his thumb traced the curve of my bottom lip. "Because Lucy needed asthma medication that Medicaid wouldn't cover. And because..."

"Because?"

"Because whenever you were in the house," I admitted, my voice trembling, "nobody ever raised their voice. Nobody ever slammed a door. My ex-husband used to break plates when he was angry. You never broke anything. You just stood there like a wall that nothing could get through. I felt safe here. Even when I knew I shouldn't."

Vincent leaned forward, his face inches from mine. I could smell the smoke from the fireplace, the bitter tang of the Scotch, and the electric, dangerous heat that belonged entirely to him.

"You are safe here, Claire," he whispered against my lips. "You and Lucy are the only things in this house that aren't for sale."

He didn't kiss me. He rested his forehead against mine, his ragged breathing filling the small space between our mouths, letting me feel the frantic, heavy beat of his pulse. For twenty seconds, the boss of New England leaned on a maid for strength, and I didn't pull away.

When he pulled back, the cold mask had snapped back into place, though his eyes remained dark.

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"Finish the stitches," he commanded softly. "Nolan has six hours left to live, and I need both hands to clean up my house."

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