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Chapter 18 - The Scars We Carry

The living room of Jill’s house was filled with the smell of pancakes and bacon when I walked through the door at noon.

Eli was sitting on the floor in front of the television, surrounded by Lego bricks, building a sprawling, chaotic castle with towering grey walls. His cheeks were still slightly puffy from crying, but when he saw me, his face lit up with a pure, unadulterated joy that nearly brought me to my knees.

“Mom!”

He scrambled up, his small socked feet skidding across the hardwood, and slammed into my waist.

I dropped to the floor, wrapping my arms around him, burying my face in the curve of his neck, inhaling the sweet, familiar scent of little boy and maple syrup.

“Hey, buddy,” I whispered, kissing his cheek over and over. “Hey, baby. I missed you so much.”

“Are we going home?” Eli asked, pulling back slightly, his big brown eyes searching mine with a cautious, fragile hope. “Is Dad still mad at us?”

My heart broke into a thousand pieces, but my voice remained steady, clear, and calm.

“Dad had to go away, Eli,” I said, tucking a stray lock of hair behind his ear. “He’s not going to be living with us anymore. And nobody is mad at you. You did nothing wrong. You are the bravest boy in the world.”

Eli thought about this for a second, his little brow furrowing. Then he nodded solemnly, satisfied with the answer, and pointed back at his Lego castle. “Look, Mom. I built a gate so the bad guys can’t get inside.”

“It’s a very good gate, sweetheart.”

I stood up and walked down the hallway to the back bedroom.

Lucy was standing by the window, looking out at the small backyard where Jill’s yellow lab was chasing squirrels through the wet grass. She had her arms crossed over her chest, her posture defensive, guarded.

I stepped into the room and leaned against the doorframe. “Hey.”

Lucy turned around.

She looked at me for a long time. She took in the dark circles under my eyes, the bruise on my forehead from the scuffle in the storage bay, and the exhausted slump of my shoulders.

“It’s really over?” she asked. Her voice was cracked, raw, carrying the weight of a fifteen-year-old girl who had been forced to become an adult in a single night.

“It’s over, Lucy,” I said. “Derek is in jail. He’s not coming back. Neither is that woman.”

Lucy swallowed hard. Her chin began to tremble, but she fought it, blinking furiously against the tears.

“He told me... he told me I was stupid, Mom,” she whispered, her voice breaking into a ragged sob. “At the diner. When I asked him why we couldn't just go home and wait for you, he told me I was useless. He said I was just like you—always whining, always ruining his plans.”

I crossed the room in two strides, pulling her into my arms with a fierce, unbreakable grip.

“You are nothing like him,” I said fiercely into her hair. “You are smart, you are brave, and you kept your little brother safe when the person who was supposed to protect you abandoned his post. You are the reason we survived this, Lucy. Do you hear me? You saved Eli.”

Lucy buried her face in my shoulder, and for the first time since that terrible phone call at 11:46 p.m., she let herself cry like a child.

Not out of fear. Not out of terror.

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Out of the overwhelming, sweet release of knowing that the nightmare had broken, and that she was finally, truly safe.

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